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Getting to know me is rough... I don't trust anyone and earning that trust can be difficult. I'm a bit of a mystery and the amount you get to know me will vary upon my trust level. If you're curious I encourage you to give a shot at getting to know me. I'm this way from experience, I'm aware of who I am as a person, I'm comfortable with that person, and I will always know better. I don't mean to be so cynical but I can't help it.

Some people would say I'm at least a little crazy and I'd be inclined to agree, but I've yet to meet anyone who is as "perfect" as they may pretend to be and don't exactly know what to classify as "crazy" these days. I'm quiet, like to sit back and watch and get used to environments I'm new to. Because of this I seem shy but I assure you I am not. Everyone is pushing some kind of facade and I can look past that and see to the real person and I like to know who I'm dealing with before I deal with them. What you see from me is who I am but only to a certain level. I will let you see only what I want you to see, the deeper you get the closer you will be to me and if I trust you that much I can rest easier.

In most cases, if you can't be patient and earn my respect and trust then I will not like you and you're going to push me further and further away. In that case you probably don't want to get to know me and have some other kind of motive or you just need someone to talk to. I'll shoot the shit with you but you don't need to know me. Beyond that you can spectate or pass me by.