If you don't itch to spend every second of
your life doing your art, don't lose sleep, lose track of hours and get
completely lost in your craft you've yet to find something that speaks
to you. Once it does though it will consume you. I know
what I am, I know what I want and I've learned and am learning how to
get it. Nothing will ever keep me away from getting to where I want to
be and once there I will need to go even further. Nothing will ever be
good enough or complete enough until my brain shuts off for good.
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Monday, October 29, 2012
Friday, October 26, 2012
Pestilence
A new poem titled Pestilence is up in the Writing section of my website.
http://theworksofjthatfield.weebly.com/writing.html
Friday, October 19, 2012
A little piece on my first paranormal encounter in time to get some October chills...
I don’t know when it was exactly now but I believe I was in the range of
seven through nine years of age. I experienced my first encounter with
anything paranormal and I can’t explain how or why this event took
place. I’m not claiming anything like I saw a full bodied apparition or
anything like that but for lack of a better term we’ll call it
poltergeist activity. Either way I haven’t talked about this much and
it’s mainly because I take a lot of paranormal claims with a grain of
salt. A ton of people get on T.V. and tell wild ass stories and I
couldn’t tell you if these people really experienced these things and
half the time I guarantee they just want attention. But the haunt season
is upon us and with Halloween around the corner I wanted to leave you
with something to get under your skin. So I’m going to try and paint you
a vivid picture of what I saw, enjoy…
It was a hot and muggy summer day and I was going to check out a summer camp to attend with my mom and uncle. Being a little kid getting ready was throwing on some shoes and running outside to dick around while I had the chance. My mom took her time getting ready though so I had time to kill outside and I did just that. I went to each friend’s house and maybe got to talk to one of them real quick but inevitably ended up outside alone. There were some clouds in the sky but there really wasn’t much wind or anything so it was pretty calm out. Despite living next to a busy highway in an apartment complex it was a really quiet day, maybe a person or two passing every thirty minutes if that.
Since my quest to bug a friend until I left had failed I decided to just sit on the steps of my porch. There were four or five steps leading up to a heavy metal door with an electronic lock and a window in the center. There was simply no way to get in without being buzzed in or having a key unless you broke in somehow. I sat about two steps down and watched out into the open area in front of me. Our house was up a floor and our window was next to those steps and open so I could hear inside. In front of me was a view of an empty intersection and a playground just behind a large ditch all of which was in front of an apartment building. So I sat watching out noticing every little movement, watching squirrels run around, flowers growing and so on.
While I sat there the knob on the door behind me started to jiggle thinking someone might come out I looked back real quick to see if I needed to get out of the way but when I turned I saw no one in the window. I shrugged it off and went back to watching nature but there it was again, real rough and aggressive. It sounded like someone was just jerking it around without purpose; still no one was at the door. I stood up and looked at it witnessing it jiggle with my own eyes and no one being there. I started to walk towards it a bit and the door cracked open a little but not enough to see inside so I thinking my friend down stairs was actually home and now messing with me started to walk towards the door to catch her in the act. Here I was taken back because the door slammed shut the first step I took and rather violently at that. I stood there a minute thinking she’d come out admit she was being silly and then I was taken completely off guard. As I stepped back off the step I was on the door swung wide open almost instantly and stayed completely open and there was absolutely nothing there. No one there to have opened it, moved the knob, close it or hold it wide open. I was stunned for a minute or so and the whole time I stood there staring the door stayed wide open. I started towards the door in disbelief and intended to find some explanation but it slammed shut just as fast as it opened almost hitting me. I quickly ran down the stairs and stared back up. As I looked forward I got to watch the door knob jiggle and the door open and shut for about a minute. Just then my mom yelled out the window “Josh! Stop messing with the damn door knob!” the door slammed shut and all the activities stopped instantly. Not long after my mom came down and I asked her if we could wait for my uncle by the curb and we did. Eventually my uncle got there and we went about our day me thinking about nothing other than what I saw though I didn’t tell anyone.
Later that night we got home with the earlier events stuck in my head and I caught a preview of Ghost Hunters. An idea struck, I thought of how they go around taking pictures to see things. I had a disposable camera I’d been walking around playing with and I decided to use it to take pictures. I went downstairs nervously and alone with the camera where it was now dark in a poorly lit hallway. I started taking pictures when the button locked in place. While trying to unjam the button I dropped the camera and so I leaned to pick it up. What happened next will forever be burnt in my brain; I will never be able to forget it. As I started to lean down the camera began to lift up off the ground a bit and I jumped back. Then I stood and watched as this disposable camera floated six feet in the area nothing at all to support it and take a picture then crash down the stairs to the basement and go into a few pieces. Needless to say I didn’t go to get nor did I stand there for very long. I ran up those stairs so fast I was in our apartment about the same time my foot hit the first step. I never really talked about it nor did I go downstairs alone ever again and if I did it was very brief.
This event is very real to me and really did happen, I can’t offer you any explanation but I can tell you there probably isn’t much of a way to obtain one. I’ll never forget what happened and I still wonder to this day what may have developed on that film. Perhaps it’s a good thing I never got to see it, maybe it made my life easier. Anyway happy October and I hope this was effective in giving you a chill remembering this event always gives me a little paranoia.
It was a hot and muggy summer day and I was going to check out a summer camp to attend with my mom and uncle. Being a little kid getting ready was throwing on some shoes and running outside to dick around while I had the chance. My mom took her time getting ready though so I had time to kill outside and I did just that. I went to each friend’s house and maybe got to talk to one of them real quick but inevitably ended up outside alone. There were some clouds in the sky but there really wasn’t much wind or anything so it was pretty calm out. Despite living next to a busy highway in an apartment complex it was a really quiet day, maybe a person or two passing every thirty minutes if that.
Since my quest to bug a friend until I left had failed I decided to just sit on the steps of my porch. There were four or five steps leading up to a heavy metal door with an electronic lock and a window in the center. There was simply no way to get in without being buzzed in or having a key unless you broke in somehow. I sat about two steps down and watched out into the open area in front of me. Our house was up a floor and our window was next to those steps and open so I could hear inside. In front of me was a view of an empty intersection and a playground just behind a large ditch all of which was in front of an apartment building. So I sat watching out noticing every little movement, watching squirrels run around, flowers growing and so on.
While I sat there the knob on the door behind me started to jiggle thinking someone might come out I looked back real quick to see if I needed to get out of the way but when I turned I saw no one in the window. I shrugged it off and went back to watching nature but there it was again, real rough and aggressive. It sounded like someone was just jerking it around without purpose; still no one was at the door. I stood up and looked at it witnessing it jiggle with my own eyes and no one being there. I started to walk towards it a bit and the door cracked open a little but not enough to see inside so I thinking my friend down stairs was actually home and now messing with me started to walk towards the door to catch her in the act. Here I was taken back because the door slammed shut the first step I took and rather violently at that. I stood there a minute thinking she’d come out admit she was being silly and then I was taken completely off guard. As I stepped back off the step I was on the door swung wide open almost instantly and stayed completely open and there was absolutely nothing there. No one there to have opened it, moved the knob, close it or hold it wide open. I was stunned for a minute or so and the whole time I stood there staring the door stayed wide open. I started towards the door in disbelief and intended to find some explanation but it slammed shut just as fast as it opened almost hitting me. I quickly ran down the stairs and stared back up. As I looked forward I got to watch the door knob jiggle and the door open and shut for about a minute. Just then my mom yelled out the window “Josh! Stop messing with the damn door knob!” the door slammed shut and all the activities stopped instantly. Not long after my mom came down and I asked her if we could wait for my uncle by the curb and we did. Eventually my uncle got there and we went about our day me thinking about nothing other than what I saw though I didn’t tell anyone.
Later that night we got home with the earlier events stuck in my head and I caught a preview of Ghost Hunters. An idea struck, I thought of how they go around taking pictures to see things. I had a disposable camera I’d been walking around playing with and I decided to use it to take pictures. I went downstairs nervously and alone with the camera where it was now dark in a poorly lit hallway. I started taking pictures when the button locked in place. While trying to unjam the button I dropped the camera and so I leaned to pick it up. What happened next will forever be burnt in my brain; I will never be able to forget it. As I started to lean down the camera began to lift up off the ground a bit and I jumped back. Then I stood and watched as this disposable camera floated six feet in the area nothing at all to support it and take a picture then crash down the stairs to the basement and go into a few pieces. Needless to say I didn’t go to get nor did I stand there for very long. I ran up those stairs so fast I was in our apartment about the same time my foot hit the first step. I never really talked about it nor did I go downstairs alone ever again and if I did it was very brief.
This event is very real to me and really did happen, I can’t offer you any explanation but I can tell you there probably isn’t much of a way to obtain one. I’ll never forget what happened and I still wonder to this day what may have developed on that film. Perhaps it’s a good thing I never got to see it, maybe it made my life easier. Anyway happy October and I hope this was effective in giving you a chill remembering this event always gives me a little paranoia.
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
My Pumpkin This Year
My first attempt at 3D pumpkin carving... I may try this again when I can invest in proper tools. I need more practice.
Sunday, October 14, 2012
October filler...
I have been completely out of touch with myself this month... I've
almost enjoyed nothing at all this October and if you know me you know
how odd that is. Life has it's ups and downs though and I'm feeling a
bit better and a little more aware. I'm getting back on track now and am
trying to focus myself on what really matters to me. While I get back
into the swing of working on creating here are some highlights of what
I've said on Facebook.
10/14/2012
Out of everything that you know exists that you can barely comprehend much less touch, see, smell or hear do you really think you are the center of the entire universes attention? Get over yourself and go do something productive with your life before you die... For extra points try not to make that something based entirely on how much money it will make you.
09/14/2012
Why do people with degrees think they know everything and bark things at you as if they are facts and you are some poor lost soul who doesn't understand real life because you don't act like a mindless sheep. Is it the piece of paper they give them for following directions and scoring well on multiple choice tests?
Those are the most opinionated things I have written since the haunt season began! That's not right... Tomorrow I vow to over decorate last minute and out do everyone in the neighborhood and write a whole bunch. Maybe I'll put together a short story just for Halloween. Anyway I am for sure going to do a bulk movie review before I go see Silent Hill.
10/14/2012
Out of everything that you know exists that you can barely comprehend much less touch, see, smell or hear do you really think you are the center of the entire universes attention? Get over yourself and go do something productive with your life before you die... For extra points try not to make that something based entirely on how much money it will make you.
09/14/2012
Why do people with degrees think they know everything and bark things at you as if they are facts and you are some poor lost soul who doesn't understand real life because you don't act like a mindless sheep. Is it the piece of paper they give them for following directions and scoring well on multiple choice tests?
Those are the most opinionated things I have written since the haunt season began! That's not right... Tomorrow I vow to over decorate last minute and out do everyone in the neighborhood and write a whole bunch. Maybe I'll put together a short story just for Halloween. Anyway I am for sure going to do a bulk movie review before I go see Silent Hill.
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